Hunter, please hang in there & try to stay strong. I can relate to how you feel because I often feel the same way. I lost my brother a few years ago to suicide & I miss him terribly everyday. His death has absolutely devastated my Mom & I. I'm sure that you have a family who loves you dearly...please stop & think of what it would do to them if you were to leave them behind. I know things have gotten hard & concerning these days, trust me...I struggle everyday, but you have to find something to enjoy in life & to try to find people you can relate to. There are people who love you! ️