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- "We're done."
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It's in the cute conversations I had memorized between the two of us. It's in the many hours I'd spent thinking to myself about you. in the long, deep conversations with my friends about how you were 'The One' and convincing myself I was good enough for someone as great as you. It's in every smile you ever had,
in every tear I wonder about, in the moments you looked into space and I wondered if you were thinking about me.
It's at night, when you're laying in bed alone....and all you can think about it him. And the memories, the feelings...they play over and over again in your head. From years to days or minutes; it really doesn't matter, you remember it all the same.
It's in the shakey feeling you knees make when you see him, when your hands sweat like crazy, you stutter and talk too much, you stomach has dinosaurs stomping around, and you heart...your heart it beating so loudly in your ears you're sure he must be able to hear it....even across the room. But really, it's just excited he's there.
I'ts in every moment, ever mistake, every reason that lead up to this one. It's what's beyond the words "It's over," that makes it so hard to hear.
So, tell me HOW exactly, are you ready to be done with all that?
The words...well those, they're easily said. But the feelings, that make it so hard to hear, will never be forgotten. Will never be 'done'. - today was one of, or maybe, THE worst day/s of my life. a while back, i got hurt. emotionally, really badly...it was, like everything was over and done for. & why it had even started in the beggining, i didn't know. there was no meaning left in anything i had done, or wanted to do. i didn't know where i was, or where i was going. i didn't know why it was happening to me. anyways, if you haven't already guessed...it was a boy. a boy i loved so much. & i'm not exactly gonna go into strong detail about what happened. so, here goes...
well, i remember the pain like it was yesterday. every feeling, every thought, every thing i said to my friends about being hurt. it was like a knife jabbed into my heart a billion times. i wrote in my diary (aha) every day about how much i hated him. but as i soon realized, the very reason i hated him SO much was actually how much i loved him. i loved every little detail about him, and honestly no matter how hard i had tried to fight him away and bring other guys into my life...it didn't work. they could be nice, funny, smart, hot. they were still ALWAYS and constantly compared to him. and they were NEVER good enough. even if he had hurt me terribly. & with this, i realized i couldn't live without him. things; they started getting better, there was light and hope. i believed him and trusted him and what it did was really bring us closer. but then today happened. a day i'll never forget. because i myself, am the thing i hate. every little word, every conversation, everything i explained up there^ the pain that i cannot explain through words, but only the long nights i stayed up crying can understand, is what i did to him. why i did it? i don't know. he's the only one i care about. the only thing i want. yet, i ruin everything perfect and good for something i don't even care about. i am exactly like what i hated so many months ago, only worse. because i should know what the pain feels like, and i shouldn't wanna wish that on anyone. especially; someone i care about so much. when things started to change and get better, he promised me that he wouldn't do it because he couldn't and he didn't want to cause he hated himself because of it. i; just hearing these words, thought just that; they WERE just words. no proof behind them, nothing proving them they were true. until it happened to myself. and i can say very truthfully, if i could take back anything in my life it was that very moment. i didn't just lose him when i did it. i lost myself. i didn't know who i was to be doing someone to obliviously stupid. you're supposed to learn from mistakes; not repeat them. especially when they're done to you. i hate myself right now tho. it makes me so completely sick to my stomach to know i could hurt someone as much as i was hurt. i wanna cry for him. i wanna cry for me. i wanna cry for the people who it effected. i wanna cry for all the shit i'm gonna have to go through. but mostly i wanna cry for the fact that i'm stupid enough to do this. i made SUCH a big deal about when he did, but even HE can forgive me. i find him consouling me. but you know what i want? i WANT to be told i'm wrong. i WANT to be told how much of a a bitch i am. i need him in my life. and when he told me he still wanted to be there, a piece of me wasn't so scared anymore. but there is still this huge whole there. & i realized every single thing i hated about him, i now hated about myself. and even if i did have him, he wouldn't be able to fix that. this tells me more about myself than it ever told me about him. soo, i wrote this to say i'm sorry. to every single person who has ever been hurt so badly they don't think there's a way out. but i also want people to know, i'm not gonna do anything to myself. i really. really don't like myself. but if i wasn't... <<<<<< N.B from Jumbotweet: auto-truncated at 4K characters on index page - Click here or on the "view" link to see entire jumbotweet! http://www.jumbotweet.com/ltweets/view/10738 - I know an 8 years old girl who doesn't like Justin anymore, and says he's changed.
I took a picture of him from than and now, 'How has he changed? Yeah, he's grown, but he's still the same Justin he has always been.'
'His smile. He used to smile, now he doesn't.' - "Look, we've been best friends since we were in diapers, we've gone through everything. 4 years of school and music is nothing. We will be right back here together, I promise" –Justin
*INFOO*
Your name is Valerie, and Justin is Justin. HAHA (:
Your friends...Shanna, Sarah, Tina, and Teagan.
Your mom: Jan Your dad: Dan
Justin’s parents are the same...Pattie and Jeremy.
You have 2 siblings, Sara and Amanda. They are both in their 20’s and don’t live with you and your mom anymore.
You live with your mom, and you stay at your dads on the weekends, but you see him a lot. He lives just around the corner.
Your mom’s house is right beside Patties and Justin’s. Pattie and your mom are best friends. They have known each other since before you and Justin you were born, and that’s how you and Justin know each other. You 2 are best friends, and connect really well.
Your birthday: April 12, 1994 Justin’s: Same...March 1, 1994
You are both 17, and in grade 12.
Oh, and the title might not make sense for how it starts out, but I have already planned where I plan the story to go...and it will all make sense.
I think that’s it...if I forgot anything or need or add more in, I will tell you.
Hope you all enjoy! Thank you for reading (:
Okay, so this is my idea for the story. If you like it, tell me..and I'll write some more parts and see how it goes. - *INFOO*
Your name is Valerie, and Justin is Justin. HAHA (:
Your friends...Shanna, Sarah, Tina, and Teagan.
Your mom: Jan Your dad: Dan
Justin’s parents are the same...Pattie and Jeremy.
You have 2 siblings, Sara and Amanda. They are both in their 20’s and don’t live with you and your mom anymore.
You live with your mom, and you stay at your dads on the weekends, but you see him a lot. He lives just around the corner.
Your mom’s house is right beside Patties and Justin’s. Pattie and your mom are best friends. They have known each other since before you and Justin you were born, and that’s how you and Justin know each other. You 2 are best friends, and connect really well.
Your birthday: April 12, 1994 Justin’s: Same...March 1, 1994
You are both 17, and in grade 12.
Oh, and the title might not make sense for how it starts out, but I have already planned where I plan the story to go...and it will all make sense.
I think that’s it...if I forgot anything or need or add more in, I will tell you.
Hope you all enjoy! Thank you for reading (:
Okay, so this is my idea for a story. If no ones likes it, I might keep coming up with different ideas or something. But if you DO like it, tell me..and I will make some parts and see how it goes. - *INFOO*
Your name is Valerie, and Justin is Justin. HAHA (:
Your friends...Shanna, Sarah, Tina, and Teagan.
Your mom: Jan Your dad: Dan
Justin’s parents are the same...Pattie and Jeremy.
You have 2 siblings, Sara and Amanda. They are both in their 20’s and don’t live with you and your mom anymore.
You live with your mom, and you stay at your dads on the weekends, but you see him a lot. He lives just around the corner.
Your mom’s house is right beside Patties and Justin’s. Pattie and your mom are best friends. They have known each other since before you and Justin you were born, and that’s how you and Justin know each other. You 2 are best friends, and connect really well.
Your birthday: April 12, 1994 Justin’s: Same...March 1, 1994
You are both 17, and in grade 12.
Oh, and the title might not make sense for how it starts out, but I have already planned where I plan the story to go...and it will all make sense.
I think that’s it...if I forgot anything or need or add more in, I will tell you.
Hope you all enjoy! Thank you for reading (:
- *The person you hate likes your status for a tbh*
Your mind: Oh, that bitch. I should tell her she's a terible person and ruined my life.
Post says; You're so nice and pretty (: we should hangout sometime!
Don't say you've never done this (; - One of your 'friends' like your status on facebook for a tbh, and all you can say is we went to school together. Maybe you weren't as good as 'friends' as you thought.
- . “The day I was born, March 1, 1994, Celine Dion was solid at #1 with ‘The Power of Love’. Not a bad start to your life.”
-Justin - It was like I opened my eyes one day and noticed that the world was full of beautiful girls. And I’ve had a hard time hard time thinking about anything else since then.”
-@Justinbieber
PS. This is adorable (: - “My first date has been sort of mythologized as ‘Bieber’s Dating Disaster.’ I took her to King’s a buffet restaurant. Yes, I wore a white shirt. Yes, I got spaghetti.”
-Biebs
- . “It’s funny when I read things about myself that r just not true. Why would certain people take time out of their day to hate on a 16 yr old?”
-JBiebs - “It’s kind of hard to balance school and work sometimes. But sometimes, like, if I’m going to the White House and I’m in there doing a tour and stuff, that’s like school.”
-JB - “It was like, Usher and Timberlake want to meet me? Are you kidding? There was no point in trying to tell anyone at school about this. It would be like telling them I was going to meet CHUCK NORRIS, and we all know that guy is untouchable. I mean, c’mon. It’s CHUCK NORRIS. He doesn’t need Twitter, he’s already following you.”
-@Justinbieber
PS. All I have to say is; I think now they will believe you (; - “To all the haters out there I wish u the best. U cant bring me down. I wake up everyday grateful 4 the opportunity and grateful to the fans.”
-Justin Bieber (: - "I have dumped a girl over the phone-it's terrible isn't it? We got into an argument during a phone call so I basically said, I don't wanna be with you andmore,' and she cried. I saw her after that and it was a bit awkward, but we're not enemies now, so that's cool. But I wouldn't reccomend it, it's very mean!"
-Justin
HAHA (: this one's cute.. - "I'm a really claustrophobic person to begin with. I hate elevators, especially crammed elevators. I get really scared. So I think it's very definitley scary when girls are all around me and I can't go anywhere. At the same time, I guess I got to get used to it, you know what I mean?"
-Justin - "I have crushes, but they're all too old. Like Beyonce-she has a husband, I might get a shot. I went up to give Beyonce a hug at the Grammy's and Jay-Z said, 'Watch out buddy!' He was kidding, but you know...
-Justin Bieber
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