I found a handwritten note in her bedroom the first time I cleaned up her hoarding mess after she first got sober. This note, I snapped a photo of, and I think I saved it somewhere on Google Drive. But I had texted it to my sister who didn't say much at the time because at that time it didn't matter what red flags I witnessed or how every internal alarm in my body would go off because I loved her and thought after she got sober, everything would just get better.
The note had a headline, "Top 5 Nice Girls To Get Off The Internet", and I was #1 and a mutual friend of ours was #2.
The note was on top of a file folder that had many papers in it where she had taken notes about me and a few other girls. My sheets had things like: homeless due to health issues, likes working with the homeless, I don't like blondes but she is cute, bigger girls are nicer, etc…..
Creepy now looking back at it. She was gathering info about me based off of facebook posts and our infrequent messages or phone calls.