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d DulceBrandi The reason he gave me was that I have too much life left to live and too much to offer the world than to waste my life waiting for someone that's "as fucked up in the mind" as he is. I told him that I would wait for him and then he asked me what would happen if he didn't come back. I told him that I would come to him.
"Things were hard enough with me in Cali now I'm on the other side of the world."
And I told him that we could at least try to make it work and he said that we'd just end up growing apart and that would hurt us more than anything. He told me it wasn't a goodbye, but a see you later. And it just...it hurts that he kept telling me that he loves me and that he always will but at the same time it was like he was questioning whether or not we're strong enough to make it. And before I was so sure. We have overcome so much and the love that I can't stop feeling for him is so deep that it crossed the age gap, the time difference and the space difference so why can't we make it now? It's just...he's trying to take away my option to wait and it's not fair. How can you tell me that you love me then...it's not right.
He feels the same way about me, I know he does, he told me he does so why?
I understand that he's following his dream. He's been wanting to do this since he was little and last night his sister told me that he gives up his dream for no one. And he gave up the contract once before because of me so this time...he took it.
You know what the really sad, pathetic thing is though? I had been planning to surprise him for my birthday this year and I had finally gotten my sister to agree to bring me out there for a week. I got my tickets in the mail the other day. I had a talk with his sister last night--which was weird because up until now she had no interest in talking to me--and she told me that there was a chance that she could get him back for me. If only for a day or so, but that's better than nothing right? I want the chance to look him in the eye and tell him everything that hasn't been said, to finally see him and to just...I don't know.
"Things were hard enough with me in Cali now I'm on the other side of the world."
And I told him that we could at least try to make it work and he said that we'd just end up growing apart and that would hurt us more than anything. He told me it wasn't a goodbye, but a see you later. And it just...it hurts that he kept telling me that he loves me and that he always will but at the same time it was like he was questioning whether or not we're strong enough to make it. And before I was so sure. We have overcome so much and the love that I can't stop feeling for him is so deep that it crossed the age gap, the time difference and the space difference so why can't we make it now? It's just...he's trying to take away my option to wait and it's not fair. How can you tell me that you love me then...it's not right.
He feels the same way about me, I know he does, he told me he does so why?
I understand that he's following his dream. He's been wanting to do this since he was little and last night his sister told me that he gives up his dream for no one. And he gave up the contract once before because of me so this time...he took it.
You know what the really sad, pathetic thing is though? I had been planning to surprise him for my birthday this year and I had finally gotten my sister to agree to bring me out there for a week. I got my tickets in the mail the other day. I had a talk with his sister last night--which was weird because up until now she had no interest in talking to me--and she told me that there was a chance that she could get him back for me. If only for a day or so, but that's better than nothing right? I want the chance to look him in the eye and tell him everything that hasn't been said, to finally see him and to just...I don't know.