I love you guys so much. It means more than I can say to know that you consider me to be your friend. And I can't tell you how deeply I feel that at times. It's great when you tell me about your successes, things that make you happy, good things in your life, or just silly stuff that makes you laugh. Those things make me happy too, and it gives me strength to keep going.
But I also feel very deeply the sad things that you share, your tragedies, your disappointments. If affects me a lot. So much that sometimes it really tears me up inside. And when you tell me that it's hard for you to go on, I feel that too. I can't tell you how many times I've been so sad by something you shared with me that I had a hard time concentrating on my schoolwork, on my music, on the things I need to do every day.
I want more than anything for you to be happy, for your problems to be solved, for your broken hearts and dreams to be fixed.
One of the main reasons I wanted to be a singer/songwriter was to make people happy, to give people hope, to help people forget about their problems for a while. That's something that I CAN do. That's something that I want to continue doing, for all of you.
But there are things that I CAN'T do. If you have a serious problem that requires professional help, I can't give you that kind of help. I'm only 16, and I haven't learned yet how to cope with all those problems myself. But that help is available almost anywhere in the world, and usually for free. If you have that kind of problem, you need to try and talk to your parents. You need to try and talk to your friends that can meet you face to face.
You've heard me say it lots of times before, that I really try to read all your comments and tweets, and I do. But it's impossible for me to answer all of them. I still have all the usual stuff to take care of that you have to do, like school and chores and trying to earn some pocket money. And on top of that is what I'm trying to do for all of you with my music.
But there's another thing too. I don't want to say it, but I have to. I can only handle so much pain and sorrow. I try, but sometimes the messages I receive are more than I can handle, not just because of how serious your problems are, but because I receive so many messages. Even if I did nothing else, there wouldn't be enough time. Many times I go to bed at night worrying if all of you are still going to be there when I wake up in the morning.
If you've followed me for a few years now, you know that I've had my share of personal tragedies and disappointments too. You've helped me through those times by continuing to support me with your cards, your gifts, your encouragement. I couldn't ask for anything more.
My music is the best and only way I know to try and pay you back for what you've done for me, and to do my part to help you through your rough times. I'll continue giving you all I can through my music.
I know you understand. Thank you for being my friend. I love you.