I tried being happy once. It wasn't really my cup of tea. Everything reminded me why I never really care about life. Why I didn't find a need to try at life.
Some people were just handed things while others, like myself, had to work for what we wanted. Sometimes, we don't deserve what we get but we can't really do anything about it because it's life.
"Aniston, honey," My mom, Janelle, called. "Your father's here!"
I trudged into the living room, sighing. I hate having divorced parents. When I was younger, and the kids at my school said that their parents were divorced, I felt bad for them. I always told myself that my parents would always be together; always be happy; never separated. Yeah, life had a different approach to their 15 year marriage.
"Hi, Ani," My dad, Brad, said as I walked in. "You ready, kiddo?"
I rolled my eyes. My dad still calls me "kiddo" knowing that I'm 16 going onto 17. "Dad. Really."
"Sorry, honey, I just don't like to think that my little girl is growing up," He smiled sheepishly. "We should get going, yeah? Miranda is waiting at the house with dinner."
Ugh. Miranda. She's the reason my family is broken. Being my dad's "Personal Assissant" didn't help. The few months before my mom had said that she had had enough, Dad wasn't home as often as we'd like and when he came home, he wasn't Dad. He was a new person. Like, an alter ego. Mom soon found out that while Dad was "working late", he was working something else. Mom was devastated, to say the least. She thought it was her fault that Dad wanted a woman 5 years my elder. Miranda's just too immature for my dad. "Okay," I said finally. "Let's go. Bye, Mom. I'll call you, okay?"
She nodded, "Okay, honey. Have fun." She kissed my forehead.
The ride to Miami, Florida was really long. Longer than I had remembered. After the divorce was final, Dad said he was moving out and going to get a home in Miami with Miranda because she "truly makes him happy."
I sighed again, wondering why Dad had to ruin such a happy life. "Hey, Dad?"
"Yeah, pumpkin?" He replied, not glancing at me.
I made a face. "Why did you move so far away?"
"I moved because I didn't want to live in Jacksonville anymore."
"Well, no duh, Dad. But why so far?"
"Some things are better left unsaid."
I 'hmphed' at that and sighed. Turning the volume of my phone, I decided to text Sophie. She lives in Miami and we were kind of friends. I mean, we kind of met via Tumblr. We were both ranting about haters and then we because Tumblr buddies. I know, weird. I had texted her and told her that I would be in Miami for a week or two and had asked if she wanted to hang out. She agreed to hang out and then said she had to go because her stepbrother, Robert, was bringing some friends over for the Summer.
6 hours later, Dad and I had arrived at his house in Miami. It was...well, a house. Nothing spectacular about a beach house. "It's...nice," I said.
"Yeah," Dad agreed. "Our neighbors to the left had just moved in not too long ago, and we haven't formally met them. Just a little block thing when they movied in. Tonight, though, they're coming to dinner. That's okay?"
I nodded, "Yeah, I guess."
I walked into the house and greeted Miranda with forced smile and walked into my room. It's the same as it was the last time I was here. The walls were a baby blue and my bedspread was a mixture of lavender and baby blue. The floor was hardwood but I had about 3 different rugs on it: baby blue, lavender, and orange. It was cute...In a way.
"Hey, Aniston. Dinner will be ready in 15, okay?" Miranda peeped her head in.
Grabbing some grub, I walked back into my room and turned the volume up on my ancient stereo. I set the grub down on my desk and grabbed my MacBook, plopping down on one of my beanbag chair things I had lying around at various places in my room.
"AnnaLeese!" My mom, Evelyn, called into my room, poking her head in. "Your friend is here."
I raised an eyebrow at my mother. I made a face. My 'friend' she was referring to was not my friend at all, but this chick that's totally looney and my mom thought that she and I would get along well. I didn't take any interest into trying to become friends with this looney girl, I just didn't want to be friends with her.
"Ohmygosh, Mom. We're not friends! I don't want to be friends with her. I am perfectly content with my Internet pals and your boss's gorgeous son - better known as Alex." I shrugged. "I just don't want to be friends with a girl who screams when I speak of Alex. She's freaky, Mom! Fuh-reaky." I continued typing on my laptop, not caring if she was still in the room, though I knew she was. I looked up, giving her a face that said 'Go.' but she ignored my wants and plopped herself onto my bed.
"AnnaLeese," Mom started with a soft tone. She's lecturing me. For not wanting to be friends with a freak. Ohmygosh. "Raylyn has emotional issues. I figured that you could at least put an effort into trying to be friends with her. She's your age and she's going through a lot of family problems."
I sighed. "What does this have to do with me?"
"She needs you in her life, AnnaLeese. She's not had a friend in a while because of her problems at the house. Her parents are divorced. Her mom is anorexic and her dad is a drunk. Her older brother is off in Michigan somewhere."
"Mom, she's not my problem. I don't like her. She's a total freak."
Mom shook her head. "Have you thought to ask Alex what he does in his free time?"
"Um, no. That's, like, invasion of privacy?"
"He's 'Internet Famous', AnnaLeese."
I dropped my laptop. My mouth agape. My eyes as big as UFOs. "HE'S WHAT."
It's been a long time since you've talked to Austin. With his move to Miami, it's been even harder.
Tonight, though, that's gonna change. Tonight, you will make everything between you two different. You will finally tell him what you've been holding inside.
You text him: 'Hey, can you Skype me? It's really important.'
He texts back: 'YOU'RE NOT PREGGO, ARE YOU?'
You reply: 'No, doofus. Just Skype me, please.'
Thirty minutes later, you laptop dings, and a request off of Skypes pops up. You accept.
Austin has chaged sinced the last time you've seen him. He's still cute in every way possible, but, he's just more...Sexy?
Austin: "What's so important?"
You take a deep breath, and close your eyes. You have to do this, you have to, or nothing will ever be right. It's now or never.
You: "I love you. I've always loved you. And I always will. We've been apart for too long. And I can't just keep this to myself. You need to know. I've been trying to build up the courage to tell you many times. I just can't build up the nerve to call you or text you. I was scared. I totally understand if you don't feel anything towards me. I'm totally okay with this being a one-sided relationship. I just had to tell you because if I didn't, I wouldn't be sleeping at night. I wouldn't be thinking straight. Austin Carter Mahone, I love you will everything I have."
You two sit there for a while. A few more minutes later, Austin laughs.
Austin: "Do you know how long I've waited for you tell me that? I love you more than anything, (yourname)."
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As I was looking at the scene unfold in front of me, I tried my hardest not to cry.
Levi and Jacey were kissing.
I turned my back to them and started towards the cafeteria...Even though I had no appetite.
I slid in the chair at our table - The Table. I sat next to Sharmay Price, my bestfriend since forever. On the left of her sat Nicholas Thompson, her on-and-off boy-toy; on his left was Teffenee Mills, total Barbie; on her left was where Jacey Lemms usually sat, though the seat was empty at the moment; to her left was her FWB, Lucas Greene; on his left was my other bestfriend, Evelyn - Evie - Bruks; on her left and my right, my boyfriend, Levi Jennings.
I talked to them as I usually did. Then, Levi walked in, sliding into the seat next to me, snaking his left arm around my waist. I scooted my chair to the left some more and everyone just stared at me. Sharmay and Evie gave me a look like 'What Did He Do?' and I shook my head, mentally answering them, giving them the 'We'll Talk Later' look.
Maybe five minutes later, Jacey sauntered over to the table and struck up conversation like it was just a normal day. Like I hadn't just seen her mackin' on my boyfriend of five months tomorrow. But, I honestly don't believe that Levi and I will even last to be five months.
"Audrina?" I snapped out of my daze, focusing my look on Jacey, the one who had called my name. "You okay? You look like you've just seen a ghost or something."
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just...tired and a bit sick," I didn't lie, exactly. "I'm going to head out." I got up and walked off towards my locker.
It wasn't long until I heard the patting of footsteps behind me. I ignored them and kept my pace.
A hand grabbed my wrist and pushed me against the wall. "What's wrong?" Levi asked.
"Nothing," I answered vaguely. "I'm tired. I'm going home."
"Audrina. What's wrong? Seriously?"
"Nothing, okay? I just want to get home and lay down. I'm feeling pretty sick," I looked up at his eyes which were searching my face for some answer.
"Audrina, I know you're lying. Why can't you just tell me what's wrong? We're dating, for Christ's sake! We don't hide things from each other, okay?" He shook his head. "I don't understand why you're lying."
"It's nothing. I swear, Levi. I feel sick. Like, really, really sick."
He let me off the wall and watched me grab my stuff from my locker.
"They didn't?!" Exclaimed Sharmay. "Are you sure?"
"I'm pretty she can tell if it was her boyfriend," spoke Evie. "It's HER boyfriend."
"Nah, durh, Evie. I just...Jacey, though?" Sharmay was totally against this.
I nodded. "Yeah. Jacey."
"What're you gunna do?" Evie asked. "Tomorrow's your five month, right?"
"Um. Yeah. And, I don't really know. I mean, how would I tell him that I caught him cheating on me with that hoe?"
I looked at my two bestfriends. They've not had this happen to them because they were careful on who they fell for. Thus, Sharmay doesn't have a committed relationship and Evie stayed away from boys. They were very precautious about my liking towards Levi, though. It was like they knew things weren't going to end well but let me go for it anyways. And I can't exactly say that I knew things were gunna end up like a fairytale. I mean, nothhing's perfect. So, why should I expect perfection?
The three of sighed as we couldn't figure out a way for me tell Levi that I had seen him. We just gossiped the rest of the night. It was maybe ten-forty-five when the girls went home; leaving me to figure things out. I lay on my bed, hands behind my back, and sigh. I close my eyes and think about how long Jacey and Levi have been fooling around; of what Levi and I have gone through in the past five months. I just lay there and think of what's going to be gone when I end things. You have to end things tonight, I remind myself. You can't break up with him on your five month. So, I sit up and grabbed my phone off my bedside table and go to my pictures. There's about one-thousand-eighty-three pictures on my phone - at least half are of Levi and I.
When I get to my favorite picture of Levi and I - it's the picture I use for everything: Facebook, Instagram, my wallpaper - I find myself sobbing. I can't believe it's ending.
I called him - Levi. He didn't answer the first time. So, I called three more times. He finally answered on the fifth ring of the fourth call.
"What?" He sounded annoyed.
I took a deep breath. "Can we meet somewhere?"
"No? It's eleven-fifteen, Audrina," He spoke. "Are you crazy?"
I rolled my eyes. As if I didn't know what time it was. "Just meet me at the park. At the swings," I said as I hung up.
Coming to the park at eleven o'clock at night was not the best idea. But, I wanted to talk to Levi. ALONE. As I sat down on the swing, it creaked. The metal things that holding it up were rusty. I had on a hoodie I had found at the back of my closest. My hair was up in a messy bun because - HELLO. - it was eleven o'clock at night. I sat there, on the swing, for about ten minutes until I saw the glow of headlights bind me. I heard the low rumble of his truck right before he had cut it off. He slammed the door and angrily strode towards me, a scowl on his face. Well, I thought, this is just peachy. I stayed on the swing, not making an effort to move when he stood off to the side. I took deep breaths and closed my eyes. You can do this, I mentally gave myself encouragement. It's just Levi.
I turned to face him. "We need to talk."
He rolled his eyes. "NO! Really? I just thought you wanted to come to the park and pretend to be little kid again. What're we talking about?"
"Us," I said in a 'DUH.' tone. "I wouldn't talk about anything else?"
"What about us?"
"Tomorrow's our five month, did you know that?" I asked.
He nodded. "I wouldn't forget."
"Well, we're not having a five month."
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I saw then together agin in my mind. I tried my best not to cry. "I saw you," was all I said.
It was quiet for a few moments. The eerie sounds of night not making this any easier. I spoke up again, "You and Jacey. I saw you."
"I..." He started. What was he going to say? 'I'm sorry.'? I wasn't going to take that. "There's nothing to say to that, I guess."
"How long?" I had turned my attention to the grass. Somehow, it had become quite intriguing. I didn't look at him to know that he had run his hands over his face. I didn't look at him to know that he had his eyes closed, trying to figure out to tell me. I didn't look at him to know that he had a hickey right under his left ear from another hoe because we hadn't slept together.
"Just a few weeks. Nothing major," He said. He walked over and sat in the swing next to me. It squeaked just like mine. His breathing was shallow, just like mine. I knew that he was looking at me, waiting for me to say something, anything. But, I didn't. "Are you mad?"
I laughed to myself. I rolled my eyes. "Am I mad? That's what you're asking me? 'Are you mad?' God, Levi, are you stupid?" I turned at looked at him.He was looking at his shoes - gray Converse that he had let me write 'I love you.' on. "I'm not as much mad as I am hurt. Because, you know, I would have been proud to say that I was with Levi Jennings for five months. Longer than anyone has ever lasted with you. No one told me why they didn't last long with you. They just said that they didn't last. Now I know why they didn't last. And, frankly, I don't know how I did it. I should have thought more of the way Jacey looks at you; how you two disappeared that one night at Lucas's a couple of weeks ago. I should have known. But, I guess was too proud to have you as my almost five month boyfriend to really care. How could you?"
He looked up at me. His eyes were gray and sullen. "I'm sorry."
"No, you see, you're not sorry. I mean, you are sorry...As a boyfriend. God, you are one sorry as crap boyfriend. But, you don't actually feel bad for sleeping with Jacey, do you? Because she slept with you. And I didn't. I mean, WHY. She's a hoe."
"She slept with me," was all he said. "She gave me everything that I wanted from you. I waited for you, Audrina. I DON'T WAIT. But, last month, when I thought you were gunna give in and you didn't, Jacey did."
"Okay. So, that's it. It's over. I honestly didn't think it would be this easy to break up with you after almost five months, but I thought wrong. You just want booty. And, Jacey will give you some, because she's a hoe. Have fun getting AIDs," I finished as I got up from my swing and headed towards my car. I slid into the driver's seat and just sat there. I sat there until I realized something: Levi didn't love me like he had said. I shook my head and started up my car, driving home at almost midnight.
I tried. ^_^ That's all that counts, right? Um, yeah, it may have seemed like this chapter moved too fast but I liked this pace. Plus, who wouldn't break up with their almost five month boyfriend the night that you had caught him cheating?